It was January 1, 2009 when I downloaded my uzzap application. It's been 1 year and 9 months now. I can still remember the first room I entered. For a week, I was there. chatting, exchanging ASLs, basic information then wandered at some rooms. Then after a month, I found a room where I became a regular chatter. I started to enjoy their company. Before I knew it, I was already addicted. Staying late almost everyday,expressing my bad, immature and noisy side. It became a routine, especially when I met my love team there. I was so hooked that I failed to notice how stagnant and unproductive I became. Well, that was where I runaway during the darkest hours of my life. I was brokenhearted that time and I felt I have no other options left but to hide "there". I didn't felt like going out with my friends nor talked about my problems with them. I didn't liked to go anywhere. I was so contented sitting and chatting. All I really wanted that time was to be ALONE.
That time, Uzzap was a great help. Those people that I have chatted were crazy and funny and seriously, they're making me laugh. Sometimes, other people thought of me as crazy for suddenly laughing and smiling alone. Lol (I knew it though and I didn't care. hahaha). It made me forget the pain and frustrations. And somehow, days passed normally for me. I mean, (before, without that uzzap thingy, the more I do nothing, the more I feel so helpless and frustrated for the lost love. Self-pitying. Couldn't sleep, couldn't eat. I was so lonely and in deep misery. So thank god, UZZAP was there.)
But then, as I slowly recovered from the wound of the lost love, I started to realize that UZZAP was no longer healthy for me. I failed to do my obligations at home and I turned out to be unproductive at my work. In chatting there, you'll never notice the time because you're enjoying. You will just know if it's breakfast, lunch, meryenda or dinner time if someone posted it. Yes, that's how I was hooked. I overlooked all the people around me at the real world.... Family, friends and officemates. I overlooked them because I was so busy chatting... chatting and chatting. Everyday, that was my routine. Chatting with co-regulars and of course with my so called "loveteam".
I guess having a love team there made my routine so worst. I am online for almost 24/7 because I was with my love team in a private room or even in a public room. Sleeping together, watching TV shows and sometimes even movies together, eating together, laughing together, planning together, going out together. Always TOGETHER. We're even partners in crime. We bacame a public figure there. FYI, She was the number 1 trivia master and even the best game master. She was famous for that. For me, She is the best. She is almost perfect... be it in a real or cyberworld.
With her, I feel so loved and envied by many (because I got the most beautiful, sexy, hot, talented and intelligent woman in uzzap!) She was my strength when I was weak. She was my shoulder to cry on. She was always there to cheer me up, to make me smile. She speaks her mind, even if it can/will hurt me... just to make me realize things, to awaken me... (I didn't know if I'm in love with her though. Was it love?)
To be continued...
That time, Uzzap was a great help. Those people that I have chatted were crazy and funny and seriously, they're making me laugh. Sometimes, other people thought of me as crazy for suddenly laughing and smiling alone. Lol (I knew it though and I didn't care. hahaha). It made me forget the pain and frustrations. And somehow, days passed normally for me. I mean, (before, without that uzzap thingy, the more I do nothing, the more I feel so helpless and frustrated for the lost love. Self-pitying. Couldn't sleep, couldn't eat. I was so lonely and in deep misery. So thank god, UZZAP was there.)
But then, as I slowly recovered from the wound of the lost love, I started to realize that UZZAP was no longer healthy for me. I failed to do my obligations at home and I turned out to be unproductive at my work. In chatting there, you'll never notice the time because you're enjoying. You will just know if it's breakfast, lunch, meryenda or dinner time if someone posted it. Yes, that's how I was hooked. I overlooked all the people around me at the real world.... Family, friends and officemates. I overlooked them because I was so busy chatting... chatting and chatting. Everyday, that was my routine. Chatting with co-regulars and of course with my so called "loveteam".
I guess having a love team there made my routine so worst. I am online for almost 24/7 because I was with my love team in a private room or even in a public room. Sleeping together, watching TV shows and sometimes even movies together, eating together, laughing together, planning together, going out together. Always TOGETHER. We're even partners in crime. We bacame a public figure there. FYI, She was the number 1 trivia master and even the best game master. She was famous for that. For me, She is the best. She is almost perfect... be it in a real or cyberworld.
With her, I feel so loved and envied by many (because I got the most beautiful, sexy, hot, talented and intelligent woman in uzzap!) She was my strength when I was weak. She was my shoulder to cry on. She was always there to cheer me up, to make me smile. She speaks her mind, even if it can/will hurt me... just to make me realize things, to awaken me... (I didn't know if I'm in love with her though. Was it love?)
To be continued...
